♥ Its too much for me to handle ♥
Tuesday, December 8, 2009 @ 8:13 PM
How i wish sometimes these things never happen.
How i wish i have never done all that.
How i wish i can prevent all this from happening.
I got no one else to blame but myself.
Because of me, all this happened.
I do feel that its too much for me to handle.
But i get to know that God gave me this life because he knows I'm capable of making through all the problems, regardless of how hard it gets.
I know i can make it through.
But right now, I keep telling myself to give up this life,
Too bad my heart wont allow that to happen.
I don't know why.
My heart keep asking me to move on and not to give up.
So thats why im still here right now.
Even though, i hate what im going through right now, i hope i can survive through it all with a strong heart.
♥ Too Painful For Me ♥
Monday, December 7, 2009 @ 10:00 PM
How a smile can hide a thousand pains in someone's life.
How laughter can hide all the pain in the heart.
It covers up all the sadness.
When someone is hurt, they tend to hide it behind their smiles & laughter.
But inside them, only God knows what is really going on in their life.
Sometimes, its hard to express all this to someone,
because they have this mindset of not bothering others with their life problems.
And plus, they don't actually express to ANYONE,
They need to find the 'right' person to share it with.
Thats why its hard to find someone to share all the problems with.
Then that will lead to depression.
Deep Depression.
Lack of sleep, no mood to eat or even study.
Mind is all over the place.
Always crying alone, sitting alone in the dark.
Occupying with things that they know will harm their life, PESSIMISTIC!
♥ *sob sob* ♥
Sunday, December 6, 2009 @ 8:00 PM
How can you say all that?
Dont you know i love you more than anything?
You gave me what i want.
But just give me a chance to prove that im worth it
Please dont make me slip away. *sob sob*
I just need another chance and time to change
But i promise you this time it wont be empty words.
I really meant what i said to you.
Dont treat me like im a stranger to you.
Just treat me like you used to?
I know its hard for you to trust me.
But please, dont do this to me *sob sob*
I beg you.
I never say i dont love you anymore
No matter what your my top main priority in my life.
I will never forget you for what you've done for me
I just want you to know that.
I love you! *sob sob*
♥ Unfairness ♥
@ 7:06 PM
Sometimes i feel like its very unfair if someone is clever is being treated differently than those who's not.
I mean differently in a good way.
They get what they want.
They can do what they want without even getting any scolding.
Even though, what they have done is obviously wrong.
I just dont get it.
What's with the biasness?
Yea, i know his smart but so what?
Thats doesnt mean he can be rude and stuffs like that.
And act as if hes the king?
So what of hes cleverer than me? But does he have the attitude like me?
Does he respect the elderly like i always do?
Its no use having a smart brain but doesnt have any respect for the elderly.
I know im not smart but at least i have the heart to respect others for who they are.
I dont go around thinking like im a big shot even if im that smart.
Im not gg to say much about this person.
I will make sure i will do what im suppose to do.
its up to him how he wants to live his life.
Since he dont even respect me.
Just dont come to me when you have any problems in the future!
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